Hey, what's up? I'm doing okay. I still miss your brother. I can't believe he's gone. It seems like he's still here. I listen to the cds and it's like his spirit comes into my room and I can see his smile again. It's hard on me...but I know it must be ten times harder on you. I was only a fan but he is your brother. His death has hurt millions of people worldwide, but I know it's hurt you the most. We were only fans and didn't know him the way you did. You are his brother, the one he looked up to when he was down and needed advice. I know it's hard, but you can't stop the music. I know it will be hard with the drummer gone. but keep the music going not just for the fans, but for him as well. He will always be looking down on you, watching over you and keeping you safe. You just have to keep the spirit of Zac in your heart. I know the fans will. Zac will always be with them, his music, his smile, his humor and everything else that made Zac, Zac. The fans will help keep his spirit alive. But they can't do it alone. You and Ike must keep your career going to show that Zac will always be remembered and loved. I can't stress that enough. The fans have lost Zac, they don't need to lose Taylor and Isaac too. To some, you guys are their heart and soul. They need you still and they always will. I know you just want to go out and kill the guy that took Zac's life. But it's not that easy. I'm sure we all would love to run him over with a car to show him what it feels like. He will never realize what kind of lose in people's lives he has caused. I don't think he ever will. Only if he sees the amount of grief everyone is going through now that he is gone will he realize what he has done. We all know how much of a lose it is..but we all have to move on. Just think about it this way. If Zac had lived, he would've been paralized, if not worse. Drumming is his life, and he wouldn't of been able to continue that. That would be so much worse, it would kill him. (no pun intended) Yes, it's a shame that his life had to end this way, but we can't change the past. If you ever need to talk, you know I will always be here for you. We will make it through this together.
Love, Jen Johnson